I feel the negative degrees as my finger prints are pressed against the window pane
Degrees of struggle as my peers fear weather and I hear the pain
I'm physically separated, negated outside vision faded
The warmth of grace comforts me
How could they have hated the fire and trade it

This is where I call home
Where I reside by the fire I abide
You can feel the chills in the dark corners of the house it hides
The frost sweats cold liquid water on the window sill it lays
Only a taste of the freezing temperature, outside on the glass it's glazed

Yet my hand grips the handle leading into the storm
My perceived intentions were to bring others in, but I had on nothing warm
Confident, smirked as I laughed
The door slammed shut to my back

The blizzard was beckoning me to get lost in the hand at task
As I stepped outside, the wind knocked the air right out of my lungs
A forceful gust took me over, now look what I've become
I see you, years have past and you are miles away from home
The prodigal tale became so real now that I am on my own

The warmth from the castle is seen afar from the chimney smoke it's spotted, ah a place to abide
Frost bitten and tattered they search for a way inside
“Surely the gate is closed,” they say, “we will have to climb, that's the only way”
Neglecting to notice the gate open the entire day

The door is unlocked, I watch from the window sill
As my heart it breaks
But what can I do but relate in the past in present with the same mistakes
I thought I knew you, I mutter under my breath
I thought knew you, now the memory knowing is my one regret

Remembering to forget
I try my best not to think about what I've turned into
Childlike faith has lost it's place after what I've been through
What will the future bring? I think about it nightly
Already it seems though I don't have a clue it holds I grip so tightly
Thoughts of who I might be
Who I will share life with
I feel as if my life is hanging and will change with any motion or a shift

I know I'm not the only one with sleepless nights when you can't lay still
Wide awake I think about it all from this window sill